Happy?

Hello all, just a heads up that is a not a Bonfirecherry related blog post such as like the Cherry Post, this is more of a personal blog post that I’ve decided to publish here to get this off my mind and if it helps someone even just one that.

A warning before you read any further, I will be very open about a lot of personal things about my life that might be a bit weird for some people. If you find to find out about Bonfirecherry has been up to, click here to find all the Cherry Posts I’ve been publishing since 2016  (CP will return in the upcoming weeks)

 

As the title suggests, its all about being happy but my problem with that is what can I do to make me happy?

I’m going to start off with a cliché, that I was a bit of a loner at school and I was due to about 90% of my school year that were friends during lower school all the way up to upper school while I moved the other side of town to start off at a middle school a week later than everyone else etc.

Anyway to cut a long story short, I didn’t hang around anyone really at school but something that kept me happy for a few years during school and at times now was playing Lego.

I used to have imaginary adventures in my bedroom with transformers like lego characters that were different every time due I had a big box of old lego sets mixed in together and couldn’t remember how I built them the day before.

Around this time I was going through puberty and was noticing girls all of a sudden but some reason I was noticing their makeup and clothes more than anything else at first and that developed into curiosity,  which I found to make me happy. This is something that kept me happy from school to now that has developed into another side of me that I have been thinking recently if I should  go further with it, will it make me happy?

This other side of me helped me through the bad times in my life such as a loss of a close friend of mine a few years ago due to suicide and some other stuff that has happened in my life. Its been a part of my life for so long that I know that it isn’t a phase I’ve been going through.

This other side of me actually appears in one Bonfirecherry design but I won’t reveal what it is in this post. This is a choice I’ve made because I like to believe my girly side of  me is linked to my creativity in a way that I can’t really explain. If you really want to know you can always contact me via the contact page.  

Anyway back to the point of this point, what can I do to make myself happy?

By happy, I mean truly happy as I haven’t like that for quite sometime to be honest. So I’m currently looking at every paths I’ve got the options to go down to make me happy and giving them all a big think. 

One path I have been thinking about is one that will bring some important changes to my life that I can’t come back from, I reveal this possible path on my personal twitter account @Burnthecherry if you are curious on what that it is.

I started this with a cliché and I think I will end this post with one but it’s something that needs to be said.. You will always have friends and family to chat to whenever you are feeling down, it truly helps chatting to someone. If you don’t want to speak to a friend or family member, I highly recommend from personal experience chatting to a councillor as you will be able to chat to them about anything in confidence.

 

Thank you very much for reading

 

Matthew